Personal – Bipolar Disorder
What It Feels Like to Grieve Parents Who Are Still Alive
You can grieve someone who is still alive. Family estrangement can bring a complicated kind of grief—especially when you never wanted to lose the relationship in the first place.
Before Mania Makes You Hit “Buy Now”: 10 Questions to Ask
Bipolar impulsive spending can be one of the first early warning signs that your mood is changing. Impulsive spending can happen during bipolar symptoms like mania or hypomania, when increased energy, reduced need for sleep, racing thoughts, and changes in judgment can make risky decisions—including spending large amounts of money—more likely. And it’s not always […]
We’re Burying Her Today. Good-Bye.
Welcome. Thank you for visiting here today. We’re gathered here to say farewell to a version of myself that no longer exists. We’ll pick her last outfit, do her last hair and make-up, and lay her to rest in a beautiful coffin. As the coffin lowers, all the other versions of me shed tears, pretending […]
I Didn’t Give Up. I Chose to Stay Alive
Hi, welcome back to my little spot in this enormous online world! Thank you so much for visiting. I’m trying to find my flow a little better with writing and updating my blog and it means the world to me that you take time to read my words. Thank you from the bottom of my […]
Life Update – Bipolar Babes Club
Let’s Catch Up Babes It’s been a while since I wrote. My life has turned into one shit show after another and I’ve been left grappling with what’s left. On top of that, I have this stupid bipolar disorder that makes dealing with emotional events all that much harder. To say I’ve been spiraling wouldn’t […]
Struggling With Managing Bipolar Medication? This Small Change Helped Me
I used to wonder if a pill organizer would help me with medication, but once I started blood pressure meds and had to change my routine, I was completely sold. Using a pill organizer is one solid way to remember to take mental health medication, vitamins, supplements, etc. It has become an integral tool to […]
The Truth About Bipolar Disorder and Impulsive Spending
My relationship with money began a long time ago. But, it was always turbulent. I’ve never been someone who is particularly good with money. Of course now I know about bipolar impulsive spending and understand more about the impact my bipolar disorder has on my entire life, but before this, there were many purchases, hobbies […]
What I Worry My Children Will Notice About My Bipolar
Sometimes I catch my reflection in the mirror and notice the way the exhaustion looks on my face. I stand there for a second, almost as if I don’t recognize the woman staring back at me. Who is she? When was the last time she brushed her hair? The fine lines start making their appearance […]
The Fear of Feeling “Too Good”
Sometimes the scariest symptom of bipolar disorder isn’t depression—it’s the moment you start to feel too good. After all, bipolar disorder is a sickness that uses joy and happiness to derail your life. Not just sadness. It’s a disease of questioning, self-monitoring and never truly being able to trust whatever it is you’re feeling. The […]
I’m Tired of Apologizing for My Bipolar Disorder
Living with bipolar disorder is hard on so many levels, but one thing that I find truly exhausting is the feeling of having to apologise for everything. Now before I dive into that let me preface this by saying my husband doesn’t make me feel this way and this is all an internal dialogue that […]