Personal – Bipolar Disorder
The Truth About Bipolar Disorder and Impulsive Spending
My relationship with money began a long time ago. But, it was always turbulent. I’ve never been someone who is particularly good with money. Of course now I know about bipolar impulsive spending and understand more about the impact my bipolar disorder has on my entire life, but before this, there were many purchases, hobbies […]
What I Worry My Children Will Notice About My Bipolar
Sometimes I catch my reflection in the mirror and notice the way the exhaustion looks on my face. I stand there for a second, almost as if I don’t recognize the woman staring back at me. Who is she? When was the last time she brushed her hair? The fine lines start making their appearance […]
The Fear of Feeling “Too Good”
Sometimes the scariest symptom of bipolar disorder isn’t depression—it’s the moment you start to feel too good. After all, bipolar disorder is a sickness that uses joy and happiness to derail your life. Not just sadness. It’s a disease of questioning, self-monitoring and never truly being able to trust whatever it is you’re feeling. The […]
I’m Tired of Apologizing for My Bipolar Disorder
Living with bipolar disorder is hard on so many levels, but one thing that I find truly exhausting is the feeling of having to apologise for everything. Now before I dive into that let me preface this by saying my husband doesn’t make me feel this way and this is all an internal dialogue that […]
Is Bipolar Disorder a Superpower? My Honest Truth
We’ve all heard it – “bipolar is a superpower”. “It makes you so creative and productive.” But honestly, few things piss me off as much as hearing this. I think it’s great that so many people can imagine the illness in a positive light, but isn’t it bypassing the real, heavy darkness that encompasses bipolar […]
I Live With This One Regret Everyday
Thank you for clicking through to read this, it means the world to me. I just need a space to explore some of these thoughts in my head and let them just take up space. Sometimes, when the thoughts are solely in my head, the line between fact and fiction tends to get a little […]
Parenting With Bipolar Disorder Without Guilt: You’re Doing Better Than You Think
Parenting with bipolar disorder without guilt is something that’s basically impossible to do. This blog post isn’t going to tell you some secret or something surrounding parenting with bipolar disorder without guilt. But hopefully what it gives you is hope and the feeling that you’re not going through this journey alone. You’re not on this […]
Invisible Illness: Why People Say ‘You Don’t Look Bipolar
One of the stupidest sentences a person could say. As if “bipolar” has a look. It’s as if being labelled as “bipolar” implies a specific physical appearance. “But, you don’t look bipolar” feels so dismissive. It reduces a complex condition to a mere stereotype, ignoring the reality of daily struggles and the diverse ways it […]
Things Unsaid: Bipolar Relationships
How do you cope with the things unsaid bipolar relationships? The things that weigh you down. Tie a chain to your heart and bolt itself to an anchor that can never be pried apart. The things that you needed to hear. The things you wanted to say. The things you couldn’t bring yourself to say […]
A Broken Plate
A broken plate. A shattered soul. A scream that filled the room as I lay at it’s mercy. As I attempt to wrap my head around the massive change that they’re about to place on me. Months and months of exhaustion, hopelessness, confusion, feelings of worthlessness, all leading up to this. This moment that is […]